LESSONS & BLESSINGS: Bank to No Baht- "We Gonna Be Alright!"

The FRUIT of MY LABOR

Ever since I quit my job in 2018, life has been an uphill struggle for me and my family. As the protector and provider, it hurt my heart and ego to not be able to contribute to the monetary essentials of life. In May 2018, I was guided by my "Hitters" to not renew my contract with my secure job and trust in the abundance of the Universe. Coming from a shaky religious background, I literally had to tear down my entire spiritual foundation in order to rebuild on solid ground. Letting go of every ounce of security and surrendering to the process was the most terrifying transition I had ever experienced in this lifetime. Every fiber of logic inside of me said, "CODE 10! ABORT MISSION." My FLIGHT was kicking in strong and FIGHT temporarily escaped my vernacular. All I could think about was, "What the Fuji did I just do?!" At first, the transition was a cake walk for us. Our bank accounts were looking tasty, we still had money coming in from T-shirt Sales and readings. We were winning! Until the well ran dry, that is. 

                                      

The 4 Hour Walk of Faith 

It's funny how life has a way of testing your faith and teaching you lessons. A few months into our transition, we hit rock bottom. Bank accounts were depleted, rent was a month past due, the fridge was totally empty, and only enough change to get 2 more gallons of water before we have to begin boiling tap water. Shit was rough... BEYOND ROUGH. We had no choice but to look outside the 4 walls of our house and pray we would find nourishment elsewhere. With nothing but water and vitamins in my belly (my GNC stash was on fleek!), I headed off on a scavenger hunt in hopes to find some kind of sustenance. I stepped out the door, butcher knife and bookbag in tow, and I immediately got a vision in my mind's eye of a patch of banana trees that I recalled seeing a few weeks prior. I had no idea if there would be any fruit on those trees, but I was about to learn today! With every step I took towards those banana trees, I got more and more nervous. Being a black girl in a foreign country with a butcher knife in her possession doesn't exactly scream world peace. Then again, I'm pretty sure that was just my ego toying with my mind. At this point, my feelings really didn't matter because I needed to come thru for my family. 

Come Thru Ganesha!

Upon reaching the field I saw many wild hogs of all sizes. Now, I don't know the first thing about hogs, and I definitely don't eat swine, but the Queen gotta do what she gotta do to rise. Luckily for me, I was able to find 2 stalks of almost ripened bananas and a juicy Pomelo. So, ham wasn't going to be on the menu that night. Proud and elated, I swiftly got outta dodge before anybody could see me. On my way back to the house I decided to take a different route, in the event somebody was checking for me. Stopping me dead in my tracks, the most beautiful butterfly flew right before my eyes. Immediately, I felt a sense of calm, protection, and fearlessness because I knew that was my wife's grandfather giving me his stamp of approval and guiding me safely back home. With Kendrick Lamar's "Alright"  bumping in my ears, I replaced panic in my feet with confidence in my step and humbly allowed the butterfly to guide me to my very humble abode. 

This moment was the turning point on the road to my salvation. The lesson learned here, F*ck what your mind says! If your heart and intuition tell you, "We gonna be Alright", you don't have a damn thing to worry about. We often say we believe in the abundance and benevolence of God and the Universe, but have we proved it lately? The ultimate sacrifice and only recognizable form of trust are surrendering to the process and allowing yourself the freedom to walk your talk and speak your truth. #ManInTheMirror. 

See you, Royals, on top!

-YUME

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